This is so blind

Just can't help but wanna be nice to you

Accept all of you.
I know what does it call!
But it's so blind...

God, please show me how to deal with it.
I thought I could stop feeling this way, at least after tonight.
But I think the feeling grows stronger that I can't even decide.

So foolish and so... suffering
but I know I enjoy it quite well.
When it comes to be with him, I just lose control of my mind.

God, please help me figure it out.
Will he come at last? Or it's me who gets over this suffering stuff?